7.18.06

in Germany...

This night was a sex dream, probably cause on this trip I haven’t been able to masturbate for 8 days now, much longer than I am usually used to. From what I recall I am in this basement bar, I’m not sure if it’s a restaurant or just someone’s bar, but the bartender is really hot and keeps asking me to fuck him when we are cleaning up around the bar area. For some reason I tell him later on, cause people can come in and out of the establishment and I don’t want to get caught. I remember where we do have sex though is in a bathroom, one that is open and there are no people yet there seems to be the feeling that someone could walk by at any moment. Then the dream jumps to a large party and this open mansion, it is in the shape of a large rectangle with an open rectangular area in the middle for a grassy area/garden. There are people everywhere in this place, there is a huge buffet, sleeping areas and drinking all around. I know this larger guy, but he is pretending to be a girl. A bunch of us are helping him cut his hair, removing his female body suit, dressing him in male clothes, or maybe it was the other way around I can’t remember correctly. What I do remember is that as he/she progressed through this change I kept thinking to myself how he became less desirable and attractive. I think it was the same hot guy from the bar (who was a little hefty, but hot like the Thomas guy from the random party in Marburg).